I wrote the following around 2006 I think. It's undated in one of my notebooks.
"Ultimately I like Germaine cause she's like me. She's a self-labelled anarchist, she doesn't follow the rules. I don't know that she's ever professed to be so highly-principled that she self-censors to make sure she never contradicts herself, or behaves hypocritically.
She is a mass of impulses and reactions. Aren't we all? I know I am.
Friends have been surprised to know I read trash magazines*, when they label me so "intelligent" or "intellectual."
I like to wear make up. I like to wax my pudenda.** Sometimes I leave my armpits hairy. Sometimes I love giving blow jobs. Sometimes I just can't be fucked.
Watch the BB clip of Germaine. She is girlish, childlike but, I believe, completely natural. She is who she is. Shouldn't we all be a bit more like her?
Everyone's so goddamned self censored. People don't say what they think, don't say what they mean. I'm reminded of a European girl who pointed out a difference between Australians and the French years ago. The context was being offered a lift in a car. While I said about ten times 'are you sure it's ok?' she said 'a European would just say 'thanks.' it's the same when Australians leave social events. We have to announce it, then say a few more times (with intervals of about 5 mins) 'I'm going to go' and dither on before we actually leave. Once my ex got pissed off with me when I made the announcement about going and he stood up immediately, whereas I was going to sit for another 20 mins. It's something about not wanting to seem abrupt but really, it is a farce.
I'm going crazy having to watch what I say all the time. People don't like strong, outspoken women. People want us to stay in our place. People, maybe, don't like strong, outspoken people."
* this was a stage, I don't any more.
** this was also a stage, I don't any more.