I've just returned from Lindcraft. I met an Angel; an elderly man with a European accent who was hovering near the thimbles when I asked a shop assistant for help with sewing machine needles.
"This would be the best person to ask," she said cheerfully. He was wonderful. He helped me get the right needles, he told me the reasons why the cotton can loop underneath the fabric. He told me to ask God for help when I sew, to feel happy when I sit down to sew.
"I'm such a beginner," I said. I didn't say I was also such an atheist.
Let the people have their God, I thought.
But I do need all the help I can get, I thought after that, wondering.
No, I told myself. Don't be a using hypocrite. You can't just borrow Him when you want. When you need to.
But that's what other people do. They rush to church when tragedy strikes, isn't this the same sort of thing?
No. They are believers anyway.
They're not seeking comfort in the beauty of the architecture? The music? The words of a wise preacher?
Oh shut up.
I wanted to cling to the man, ask if he could adopt me and make me his acolyte, even though I think I'm the wrong gender for acolyte-ism, and probably a few decades too old. I wanted to ask if he gave lessons, did he have a card, did he ever sew for anyone famous, what stories does he have, which country did he leave and why? Who knows? He could have been Melbourne's Dior for all I know. Or another old Nazi.
He bought a thimble with an open top - he said they are the best types. He wished me good luck, and to have a wonderful day. I told him he was very kind, and thank you. I didn't want to walk away from him. Did he feel it too? I wonder.
- a measuring tape: soft, not a fucking metal builder one which I've been using and which likes to attack me as I'm stretched out on the table, in my most vulnerable positions.
- some fabric scissors.
- some thread snippers.
- a metre metal ruler. Look out.
- some cotton.
- sewing machine needles, pack o' 5.
So I'm all set to go. Again.
Tomorrow is sewing day. Again.
I will practise more on the fabric scraps, which are kind of running out. I will fix my looping thread problem. I will get these curtains done.
Happy Tuesday to you all.