Thursday, May 04, 2006
uh-oh, oh no, i'm a goner. what am i going to do? how can this be? shit.
current (online) obsession. i just never thought i would have a crush on two lipsyncing chinese boys.
just checking in.
with two words for you.
i am in big trouble. for an addictive personality, comme moi, who has to get a thesis in, like pronto, discovering something like youtube is at once an excitement of the highest order, tinged with anxiety. because i know it will be so hard to resist. especially as i cast my eye, and my mind, around for ever-more distractions, in the lead up to my submittal.
i am over the thesis. i want it in. out of my hands. off my back.
and then i can quietly have a little reaction, get even more moody than usual as i wonder what to do with myself, and why does my life have no meaning, etc etc.
i should just tell myself youtube will wait for me. and that will be my life meaning. to explore and find and share all sorts of jewels that i'm sure are waiting there for us all.
pray for me.